It’s been a pretty hectic week. Caught between work and house chores, I can’t find some time for my own writing. I enlisted for this online writing class sponsored by one of the country’s top authors and as I was going through some discussion thread posted by my other classmates, I can’t help but feel so small. We all have one goal and that is to be published but that’s how far as our similarities go. As you can see, our moderator has top praises for their story pitches and I can’t seem to find my place to fit right in. I’m very disappointed with myself knowing I could do better than this. All my other classmates are professionals which means they’re armed with experience. Then there’s me. A lonely dreamer.
For our first assignment, we had to submit our story pitch. Since it’s a contemporary romance novel we’re supposed to finish by the end of this year, parallel universes and fantastic characters are a big no no. So I had to ransack my brain for ideas here and there. I had three big ideas, most of which came to me in the middle of a good night sleep, but all were turned down. Yes. I felt a pang of pain and desperation that time since I was on a pressure to submit before the deadline.
I was on the verge of explosion. My brain was on an overdrive, looking for story ideas. There was a time that I even questioned if this was for me. Mom told me to give it up if it’s of no use, but I know otherwise. I told myself, one more story pitch and if this gets turned down too, goodbye writing career. I slept on it and when I had the perfect, not “heavy-and-too-challenging” scene plotted out, I submitted it. It was pretty nerve wracking for me. But yes, after weeks of agony, it was finally accepted. On to our second assignment, the ”outlining” round. This is where it gets exciting and difficult at the same time. My characters won’t seem to listen to me and kept on doing their own thing. Ugh.
So I guess being a writer can be downright frustrating at times. Especially if you can’t put into words what you’ve just made up inside your head. But I know for a fact that when I finish this story, it’s going to be the best feeling in the world 
xoxo
Steph.
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I wanted to join an in-person workshop, but I’m afraid that I won’t be able to connect with my fellow students. I’m afraid they’ll all be professionals who’ve been at this way longer than I have. Mostly, i’m afraid they’ll look down on me because I don’t know as much as they do.
If I may ask, where did you find these online writing classes? Even if they’re no longer taking applications I can bookmark them and look if they offer others.
Oh gee! exactly my sentiments Lauren! I feel so small.. like itsy bitsy small.. But I have to keep fighting because this is my only shot..
( the writing class is actually sponsored by a local author here in our country.. it’s for free and she just gives out assignments every 3 weeks. Are you from the Philippines? You can probably still sign up. 
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Oh, no, I’m in the U.S., but I’ve found a couple online writing courses I may look into here with a little Google magic!
Aww.. I’m pretty sure Google will round up a lot of results! Thanks for dropping by! All the best to our writing careers
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Chin up, Steph. I am here for you if you need help, and I can feel that you’re an amazing writer. Have faith in yourself. xo
Thank you so much B! I needed that. I know for a fact you’re only a tweet away. hahaha. anyways, belated happy birthday again ! <3
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NEVER GIVE UP. WRITE FOR YOURSELF. Those are the best two pieces of advice I can give you. But there is a third piece of advice that I recently learned (and it is a tough one); “No one is ready to be an author until they have written one million words.” Sounds daunting but like I said, write for yourself and eventually you will realize that others are enjoying what you write. Best of luck. (PS: I have not yet reached the one million word threshhold and may never do so before the Great Publisher calls me)
Oh gosh. I want to cry. Thank you for the beautiful words of encouragement mr. wally! I have lost all faith i myself already but because of everyone’s support, I’m climbing back up.. and you’re right… I SHOULD WRITE FOR MYSELF and not for anyone else.. (P.S. IT IS PRETTY DAUNTING! hahaha. I may not be able to reach that goal maybe in time.. hahaha.. all the best!! ) THANK YOU Mr. Wally! for everything.. THank you
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Hi! I love the way you express yourself. I will be reading your posts:-)
Hi there!! Thank you so much
) Will be reading your posts as well… Cheers! <3